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Name: Karla
Gender: Female
Interests: International Music. Strings. Percussion. Wind. Books. Lots of Books. Drawing. ALL Art. Banksy. Miss Van. Mademoiselle Kat. Vanity. Toki Doki. Cosmetics. Fashion. COLORS&STYLE.
Expertise: Telling the truth.
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AIM:  DrkAngl91
MSN: panfan91@gmail.com
Member Since:
9/19/2004
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| LONG TIME NO WRITE... again. [: Well, to be honest, I have nothing to really write about. Everything in my life is as normal as it can be. And to be even more honest, I only really wrote in this whenever I felt like I was alone. It was sort of like... I was hoping someone would read my posts and would care. But, hey, I guess that my writing less is a good sign. ;)
I'm writing now in hopes of asking everyone who reads this to have my dad and my family in their prayers. There's been so much stress amongst us that I don't know how to handle it, other than by keeping my head up and praying for strength. So maybe you guys can give me strength as well. (:
I've always had issues with my parents keeping me from ANYTHING happening with my family. I guess they did it to keep me from getting hurt, but I'd always eventually find out when the situation gets worse. I thought that since I'm older now, they'd at least trust me enough to tell me the truth. But lo and behold, it's happened again. Apparently, my parents got a court summons for not paying for the house - the house we're living in. And I only found out because my dad needed me to type their reply. I learned from the past to not question it 'cause they'll just take me around in circles that will eventually end in "Don't worry about it." So I didn't. I've known that my parents have been in some financial trouble for some time now, but they've kept me from the extent of which they are. AND NOW, they're talking about buying a house in a Philippines. I almost felt like yelling "WITH WHAT MONEY?!" But I held it back. So now, with no idea about what's going on with them financially, I don't know what kind of support I should be giving. And thus, I'm just sitting here.
On the other hand I've got my dad and his health issues. He was sick with the flu this past week and couldn't even make it to work. Then his knee started acting up. Now his right eye is blood red. The flu's gone, but his knee is still giving him issues and his eye is still red. I tell him over and over again to go to the doctor, but he just brushes it off like it'll be okay. I'm even more worried 'cause when I check his eye up close, I could see a gray shade coming over the top of his iris - something that I've only seen in glaucoma, so I suspected it to be cataracts. I told him that to scare him into going to the doctor, but he just grinned and nodded. I don't know if it's just 'cause he's being stubborn or if it's because of his new crappy healthcare plan, but I don't think he's taken any initiative. I've talked to my mom, my aunt (his sister), and I complain every day about him seeing a doctor - still nothing.
I'm so lost in this, I don't know what to do. I was on the verge of telling my dad I won't listen to what he tells me if he won't listen to what I tell him. It's almost infuriating. It's hard to see him getting so old, so fast. I know he can fight this if he tries, but he does nothing but work. I respect that he wants to take care of the family first, but he needs to take care of himself too.
So that's that. An update on my life. Maybe you guys will have some great advice for me. [: Thank you for reading!
<3
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| Since Chantelle has been hounding me for updates and since I don't really have anything interesting to report about my days or life - I have decided I will do posts about things that have interested me for the day or ... well, really, just whatever's caught my attention and I feel like sharing.
Quirky / "Out-dated" Vocabulary - I was talking to some lady for info on that EPI thing we have to join for leadership class and she described the club (or whatever it is) as "wicked cool". On another day, my dad gave me his annual talks about 'pregnancy' and 'being smart' and referred to sex as "hanky panky". I challenged my friend to "fisticuffs". I prefer "shindig" over 'getty'. Basically, I love words and phrases that no one really uses anymore. It's fun saying them. And I love when other people use them too ... it builds my vocabulary. [:
Old-school / Hanna-Barbera Cartoons - I grew up watching a massive amount of television - probably like any other kid. Except I had issues sleeping, so I would stay up late and watch the old re-runs of 1980s cartoons on Cartoon Network. I was reminiscing the other day and thought of Quick Draw McGraw (El Kabong = <3), Hong Kong Phooey, and the like. I really love those cartoons and I get excited when other people say they remember them too. There were the late night mature cartoons that I remember they'd show on MTV. Like really messed up ones. I don't know why I watched them, but I did. And OH! Canada... I don't really know if anyone remembers or even watched OH! Canada. And Bob and Margaret! Oh man... that brings back memories... Anyway, I think I started thinking about them when Tiff started the whole "Hey booboo!" fiasco. x]
Stand-Up Comics - I think I need more comedy in my life...
MOVIES - 'nuff said.
Comic Books / Comic Book Heroes - I'm not as avid a reader as my friend Maui, but I've read my fair share. The Dark Knight Returns, Watchmen, Sin City, and recently Kick-Ass. Basically, comics that have been turned into movies. Haha. But I do love my comic book heroes. And having about a 30-minute conversation with Miko just about comic book heroes ... I realized I'm a nerd.
Well, that should be enough to keep my "avid readers" content. Maybe more next time. RAWR.
P.S. I still plan on doing the picture per entry thing... I just haven't taken any interesting photos in a while. So enjoy pics from my vacation 2 years ago. :P
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| BECAUSE Chantelle and Tiffany keep pestering me for not updating my Xanga - and calling me fat - I have decided to do just that.
The gist of it is ... NOTHING IS NEW. Ha!
Joking. Not really. But seriously, I'm just trying to do better in school and trying to figure out what I want to do.
I'm sorta obsessed with film at the moment. I don't really know why. I mean, I've always been interested in movies and the like, but it really made me think about what I'm doing with my time at school and if I'm actually pursuing what I want. I try to snap myself out of it and tell myself "it's all for security at the end." But ... eh. It's ... a tornado in my head. Just dealing with it.
Hmmm.... pretty much it. Just trying to take it all one day at a time.
Thought/Want of the moment: HAVE A SECOND CHILDHOOD. Watching old cartoons + going back to Disney World + stress makes you want to go back. Sigh...
Something to hold onto...
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| *sigh*... I don't know why, but I just keep being stupid about it.
I KNOW I don't want to be with him. And when I really think about it, I wouldn't want to run into him. But I still find myself trying to get in touch with him and trying to meet up with him. WHY? I don't know why. It's like an itch. A very annoying itch that won't go away.
I really have to stop thinking about it and just let it go. It never works out that way though, and it sucks. Whenever I do eventually start thinking straight, I feel incredibly stupid and want to literally knock some sense into myself.
Ugh. The stupid things we have to deal with in life.
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| So, awesome event of the day - I got a palm reading. :D
I was at the SPC showing of 'Milk', helping set up, swipe cards, and whatnot. There's this one guy in SPC named Max, and Mo told me he can read palms. I was like "HOW COOL!" and then Mo was gonna get his palm read, but he got scared. Haha. So I volunteered. See, coming out of my Religion Analysis class, I became VERY open-minded to such mysticism. SO I was SUPER excited to get a reading.
SO... what I remember from my reading:
- I'm going to die at the age of 75 from a heart attack. I always believed I wouldn't make it pass my 70's 'cause of the line of diseases from BOTH my parents. This only confirmed it. Haha.
- I'm going to start my career at the age of 25 and I'm going to love it.
- I might have a career in art. This made me so very happy.
- My career is gonna be something that I've always wanted to do since I was a child and it is going to incorporate some of my hobbies as well. I WAS SO EXCITED TO HEAR THIS! I always worry about my career and if I'm truly going to love it.
- I have some good money management and I'll be reasonably wealthy in the future. This made me laugh 'cause I actually had to go to the bank with my dad today for some crap that happened involving overdraft charges... Haha.
- I have good leadership skills and am a little stubborn. I personally don't believe I have good leadership skills, although I'm trying to get better. And I CAN be stubborn, but not always.
- I should not go into politics or anything of the like. Thank goodness.
- I've had 2 major loves in my life. I was so taken back by this - 'cause it's true. Gahhhh.
- I go after my dreams and accomplish them. I am passionate and ambitious. However, I have to contain my passion and ambition because if not, I'll never know what I want to do. THIS IS SO TRUE! I feel like I have a lot of ambition, but I can't focus it on any one thing. Sigh...
I literally had to step back and was like "...can I give you a hug?" I was amazed. Maybe I'm gullible, or maybe I'm just open-minded. But it really left me in a good mood.
He's gonna be at our SPC Pit Event on Monday. I can't wait to see what people think of his readings.
Oh! And I asked him how he learned to read palms. He told me his family lineage was Romanian and were Gypsies. So they wrote down a lot of what they knew in this book... which he read. And from there he learned and practiced how to read palms. How awesome.
Yep. My day was eventful. And dance practice was fun. I think I cut my eye again... I don't know how. It was feeling weird after practice and when I got home it hurt more and the vision is affected like when I cut it. So, I'm thinking my contact got dry and scratched it again, or something got into my eye and scratched it. It's not TOO bad though. I'll live. [:
Peace and love! <3
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